Tuesday, February 13, 2007

IOW--Defining our Needs

It's been a bad day.

It started early this morning as I drifted off to sleep and realized I hadn't even read today's quote, much less started writing.

It comes after a week of a croupy, clingy two year old needing more than Mommy has to give her.

It continued at 7 this morning with a croupy four year old waking up crying because the coughing hurt her ribs. *sigh* Another week of not enough Mommy to fix the yucky feeling to look forward to. I *hate* not being able to make them better with the wave of a hand.

The day continued. I have the aftermath blahness of a migraine yesterday. I have that moodiness that says "everyone really needs to stay clear for a few hours." I have two major things happening in my home next week, so I'm trying to get the house really clean for them. This is difficult with little ones who don't feel well. They made themselves feel better by dumping a large paper box full of styrofoam peanuts on the floor in the only room I've finished. I'm feeling pushed to my limit. And I wonder, "Why God does it all have to happen at once?" But refining comes under pressure, doesn't it?

Mercy Me is singing in the background. "Sometimes I feel disappointed, By the way I spend my time, How can I further Your Kingdom, When I'm so wrapped up in mine?"

Lord, Help me not be so wrapped up in my kingdom that I miss how you are refining me for Your Kingdom. Forgive my impatience and my pity for myself. I trust that you have my best at the heart of what you allow to come into my life. Forgive me when I doubt. Amen.

"We are urgent about the body; He is about the soul. We call for present comforts; He considers our everlasting rest. And therefore when He sends not the very things we ask, He hears us by sending greater than we can ask or think."
~ Richard Cecil ~

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Pixilated Mum said...

I'm so sorry! Migraines can really do a number on a gal. I'm sorry things are hard. Do remember to be easier on yourself when you feel so badly and it does help, knowing you don't have to do EVERYTHING.

I loathe styrofoam in any form. So hard to clean up, darn crumbly things. Grrrr.

Take care of yourself. My prayers are with you.


blessed4times said...

Thanks for sharing with such transparency. I needed a good dose of that right now. Blessings on you! I pray you will be able to turn to the Lord for your strength and His perspective as the week presses on!

Jennifer said...

I pray your week will get better. I have found when cleaning that giving the girls an area where they can be messy helps. I'll say these 3 rooms are oof limits but you can play in this one room. Then I clean up that room last. I hope everyone gets better and that the events at your house go well.


Amydeanne said...

I know weeks like this!
Hugs and prayers!

Denise said...

Praying for you sweety.

Tami Boesiger said...

On days like this I think God smiles as we press on. We honor Him by enduring and doing the right thing (taking care of those precious girls when all we want to do is lay in bed all day). Hang in there. Not all days will be training days.

xsquared said...

(((hugs))) and prayers for you, sweetie!

glen said...

I'm impressed that you can verbalize what you are going through. It will get better. God bless you.

Kristin said...

Lots of {{{{{hugs}}}}}

Grafted Branch said...

I was reading through some of my archives recently and I was just. where. you. sound. to be!

I was overwhelmed and so in love and so sad that I was overwhelmed by that which I loved!

This is such a hard age. Hang in there; it won't always be like this.

And the Lord is soooo faithful that on the other side of a day like this you'll be able to truly thank Him for the trial.

Anonymous said...

I have been so out of the loop these past two weeks also, with a sick household...and I don't even want to contemplate the mess my house...especially the kitchen and laundry room...is in. I will keep you in my prayers this week and hope that the upcoming week holds many blessings for you and your family.

Sara Laughs said...

I hope your household is healthier and you are feeling happier. Rough days are the pits.

Pam said...

I hope everyone is doing better now and things are looking up. *hugs*