It's been a bad day.
It started early this morning as I drifted off to sleep and realized I hadn't even read today's quote, much less started writing.
It comes after a week of a croupy, clingy two year old needing more than Mommy has to give her.
It continued at 7 this morning with a croupy four year old waking up crying because the coughing hurt her ribs. *sigh* Another week of not enough Mommy to fix the yucky feeling to look forward to. I *hate* not being able to make them better with the wave of a hand.
The day continued. I have the aftermath blahness of a migraine yesterday. I have that moodiness that says "everyone really needs to stay clear for a few hours." I have two major things happening in my home next week, so I'm trying to get the house really clean for them. This is difficult with little ones who don't feel well. They made themselves feel better by dumping a large paper box full of styrofoam peanuts on the floor in the only room I've finished. I'm feeling pushed to my limit. And I wonder, "Why God does it all have to happen at once?" But refining comes under pressure, doesn't it?
Mercy Me is singing in the background. "Sometimes I feel disappointed, By the way I spend my time, How can I further Your Kingdom, When I'm so wrapped up in mine?"
Lord, Help me not be so wrapped up in my kingdom that I miss how you are refining me for Your Kingdom. Forgive my impatience and my pity for myself. I trust that you have my best at the heart of what you allow to come into my life. Forgive me when I doubt. Amen.
"We are urgent about the body; He is about the soul. We call for present comforts; He considers our everlasting rest. And therefore when He sends not the very things we ask, He hears us by sending greater than we can ask or think."
~ Richard Cecil ~
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