Friday, May 17, 2013
Time for another 5 Minute Friday writing blitz with Lisa Jo Baker. Today's prompt is SONG.
It's just a song. That's what I tell myself as I stand there with the tears, suddenly, unexplainedly falling down my cheeks. Just a stupid (or beautiful or cheesy) song.
Yet, here I am again. Filled with emotions. Songs trigger memories and emotions in me quicker than anything else.
"Truth Will Rise" and I weep---hopeful that it will, months later grateful that it did.
"Saved a Wretch Like Me"--why me, I wonder. Why? Grateful tears flowing.
"You are my Sunshine" I whisper as I remember those first glorious moments of holding my baby.
"Listen to my Heart" I sigh as I cannot find the words to praise or petition.
Songs. Reach into the part of me that needs to release--to sing--and allows the emotions to flow when I am trying to hide them. Makes me vulnerable and strong.
That's why songs are my favourite part of worship services. They prepare me. They empty me. They fill me. All at the same time.
And why music is always on in my home. It calms. It evens. It lays the groundwork for my life.
It's never just a song. It's always something more.
Wonder what song I'll sing today?
Friday, May 03, 2013
Linking up with Lisa-Jo and the Five Minute Friday writers today. The topic is BRAVE.
I am not brave. There is not a brave bone in my body. I fret, I stew, I worry. I even hyperventilate. But I don't face things bravely. I am a coward.
Yet, I moved from Kentucky to Washington as a newly minted social worker with just the cat to a place where I knew no one for a job. (Later I found out I had family there! Go figure!)
And I quit my job to start a single's ministry at the church (and then working part-time in social work).
And I got married. ;-) Actually for someone determine to remain single, maybe that was brave.
I followed my husband to another state and then another country (and another and another).
I gave birth to three amazing blessings. I said good-bye to two blessings before they grew big enough to meet them beyond the "blip" on the screen that faded to nothing.
I homeschooled my children.
I send my children to school.
I attempt to learn to speak German.
And people comment all the time that I must be so brave to do the things that I do. I just shake my head.
I'm not brave.
But I trust in a God who can handle any of these things and more. When his hand has directed us to a new place, a new job, or a new aspect of our life, I've learned to just follow. Hyperventilate if I must, but follow nonetheless. The blessings have been amazing.
Call me blessed. Call me faithful. But don't confuse that with bravery. They are not the same thing.
Seriously, go visit the other brave women linking up today. You will be blessed!